Positivity in a Negative Mind

it_came_from_the_dark_mind_by_megrandyphotos-d3f796bHow can you be a positive person when all of humanity has shown you there is nothing to be positive about?
There are bombings everywhere, children dying by our government or by hunger.
A place where recording someone getting shot or beaten to death is rewarded by playing it over and over again on mass media.
How am I supposed to be positive?
My mind lives in the negative…growing up as a little one a mere 3 yrs old is when I learned I  needed to protect myself from the monsters who lived all around me.
I know something wrong can happen at anytime.
In the past few month’s I have tried to live in the positive and accept and rejoice in my little victories and not let the negativity get the best of me. But I always seem to find myself in this negative state of mind.

I try to shake it off but somedays it wins.
When your life has been nothing short of an Oscar winning performance it’s extremely hard to live in the positive. With the grace of God, the universe or w.e I will keep moving forward in this ww3esque journey to positivity.
I really hope that I will be the victor here and not the negativity that has had a hold of me all my life.

Getting anywhere in the city is MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!!

As I stepped into the world today, I mentally prepared myself as I always do and I will tell you why.  When I walk down the street, not only do I have to deal with cat calls from unappealing men or women, I also have to deal with not being seen half the time. For example, as I was boarding the train today, a woman that towered over me just kept shoving me with her bag and her ass was literally in  my face. I said, “Excuse me!!”  As she looked around, it was obvious she didn’t know where the voice came from. Finally, she looked down and said, “Oh I’m sorry I didn’t see you there.”  I’m like, “Well, OK.” It’s not her fault I’m so small. I was also with my mini me, which was a double whammy because she is extra tiny for her age, and as we were looking at the tree at Rockefeller center, I was just like, “HELLO!! Why don’t you just step on my face?!”   We were there for about 15 minutes when we finally gave in and decided to make our journey home. I know that everyone goes through this craziness while living in NYC, but for us small people it really sucks.