Positivity in a Negative Mind

it_came_from_the_dark_mind_by_megrandyphotos-d3f796bHow can you be a positive person when all of humanity has shown you there is nothing to be positive about?
There are bombings everywhere, children dying by our government or by hunger.
A place where recording someone getting shot or beaten to death is rewarded by playing it over and over again on mass media.
How am I supposed to be positive?
My mind lives in the negative…growing up as a little one a mere 3 yrs old is when I learned I  needed to protect myself from the monsters who lived all around me.
I know something wrong can happen at anytime.
In the past few month’s I have tried to live in the positive and accept and rejoice in my little victories and not let the negativity get the best of me. But I always seem to find myself in this negative state of mind.

I try to shake it off but somedays it wins.
When your life has been nothing short of an Oscar winning performance it’s extremely hard to live in the positive. With the grace of God, the universe or w.e I will keep moving forward in this ww3esque journey to positivity.
I really hope that I will be the victor here and not the negativity that has had a hold of me all my life.

Train Ride

As I sit here with the many commuters of the city traveling to work my mind just wanders off .
I think about how far I’ve come in life and how proud i am of myself.
I think about how beautiful and smart my daughter is.
I think about how blessed I am to have a man in my life who truly loves me.
I think about my job and where it’s taking me in life.
I think about the many people that are my supporters in life and how grateful I am for them.
I think about buying a home and a nice neighborhood where I can lay my head at night in peace along with my little family.

All I do is keep thinking positively and keep pushing for a better me. It’s not that I’m not happy with who I am or grateful for this moment. I just know that I can make my future brighter!

Looking at all these faces on the train makes me wonder…what are they thinking about on their commute to work?